seriously time can go slower. fer me.
promises are NOT meant to be broken..
i stand alone to face the consequences of the sins ive committed.

i shall have a tattoo to remind myseld tt 'thou shalt nt sin'
and another one tt signifies my luv to the ones ard me and im sorry if ive failed to fulfill my duties as..

i stand alone to face the consequences of failing my exams/ remember.

sundae mornin'

sundae morning rain is fallin.. da da da =) *big grins
-shrugs- im juz happy. hahhaa

lazy sunday. weather is simply beautiful.. beautiful dae* the ledge is still wet. droplets fall gently frm leaves, where they had gathered last night. small puddles here and there there and here as i look down 4 levels. it rained last night and this mornin still kinda cloudy. probably sun's too damp to come out. hee

waiting fer grace to call me so amos cld give me a lift to hougang.. but if she forgets, damn! i pray not! grace pls rem me!!!

i got my namecard! lol. it's really nice. 3/4 of normal namecard size. paper material is good. overall comment: excellent. fabulous. simply amazin. kudos to junfeng and serene. well done! =)

oh well back to chewin on apple tt had turned brown due to enzymic brownin since i put it down fer tt lil while to type above paragraphs. tsk.the rate at living things decompose. *pun intended*

i muz sae sundae mornin in hall is real peaceful quiet and tranquil especially in this weather. back at home this time, more often than not, the community centre nxt to my blk will be playin old pop songs and disruptin my beautiful slp, arousin me frm my slumber. *grrr. i roar*

but wells nt really that my beautiful slp wasnt interrupted by the familiar 'di di di didididi' of my nokia 7260 alarm. cos grace said to be ready by 9am! jesus! where is she. shall call her now!

stop tt clock!

i hope u have not forgotten wad u promised when u put ntu as ur choice juz march/april this yr.

"i promise to work real hard and get my double specialisation doin acc and mkting. mum dad i'll not let u down, will cont to bring honour and glory to the family, like how i did fer my 'A's. i will work hard for the family, to earn enuff to give u a comfortable life ltr on. i'll drive a car and bring all of u ard fer breakfast and dinner togetehr w jack and jie. u all dun have to worry cos i'll bring in the money fer the family. im spendin the most now but i'll repay u back twice the amt. trust me like u have alwiz done. i swear i'll produce results. love"

u do realised u have to put everything aside this period of time to concentrate on ur studies. it's the period where it's "every man fer himself". be selfish and focus on urself. who's goin to be there or give a damn if u dun perform up to expectation, or worse fail. the most comes a consolation. u have to think of the future repurcussions - ur honours degree, ur position and salary nxt time. can u PLS drill that in. put aside friendship and love for this will not help u ace ur exams! do wad u have to do. dun waste anymore time cos there's no more to waste!

most importantly u cant let mum and dad down. they have so much faith in you... they will dread to hear 'im sorry'.

hAll foc gl list is out! me sadaf chengngee and ashley are in the same grp. lol. ashley's a himbo and the other 2 are bimbos. so wad am i goin to do?! hah bless. so long ashley can open up to us and be friendlier. hope he's like jiaqi since they're gd frens..

rain received a DAMN cute softtoy frm siewcheng! hahahhaha. it's so farnie. darn i cant load the photos up here cos the photos are still in rain's cam. let me recall her name: ms boogie woogie (forgot) posh. *clicktongue* pillay. hahha and the word 'p.o.s.h.' is contributed by hongying which stands fer 'piece of shit head'. at the same time she named rain's 'chou chou pillow'- 'p.o.s.t.' which is 'piece of shit thing'. LAMERS! hahhaha and i made ms boogie woogie did a few catwalks. first tehre was ganjiong walk. than jumpin fer joy. the last was ultimate! it's theeee GHOST walk! hahaha. it made rain and i laughed so hard everyone downstairs were complainin and im surprised tony didn come up to catch us. "hoi MAI CHA!"

tony is damn dumb. fyi. he;s the hall security. and nobd gives a damn f. bout him. he's such a poor thing cos wadeva he saes, either it's being ignored or some seniors will scold him back. we were juz sayin muz tape him slackin at tv room and dozin off at night so to kick him outta hall. mmms... evil scheme. but seriously!

the other dae we were playin sparklers outside rain's room cos it was MAF. and he had to come runnin all the way up to 4levels as if to catch some kind of criminals. nv seen him run tt fast before lars. bloody hell. we were bowlin w laughter and yingying and cheng went into cheng's rm while me and rain dashed back into rain's rm. we were tryin so hard to stifle our laughters! off the lights and fans. and when tony came up he stood outside rain;s door and threatened to tell hall office to evict rain and grace. (our names are on e doors). wtf right. ridiculous. but we cldn care less cos it was SO farnie! hahhaha.

rain(bow)

HAPPY BIRFDAE RAIN!

look! it's in the colour of rainbow! cos grace kuang said u like rainbow. hope the one on e shower curtain will turn out pretty like u =) and cutiepie ur hair is not ugly just farnie. *grins

jeff has been talkin qt a lot to wens recently.. i duno if it's recently or juz tt i duno bout it until now. it's juz weird that wens and me have so many common frens and we hang out so much (maybe nt?!) but we can nv be close?! on my part i dun feel secure cos i noe part of wad i sae will end up w somebd else and she nv really cares fer me so y will i wan to share w her my probs? have seen the self centered side of her, when i give she takes and doesn reciprocate. i may seem selfish but tt's how i wan my frens to be. simply to stand by my side when im alone. period. i think tt's all i can ask fer now sadly.

y am i alwiz noting down the unhappy side of life and omitting the farnie and exciting parts?! haha.. i shd fill myself with happy thoughts. -7sins doin tricks i guess.. anger jealousy greed vain sloth.. and cant rem the others. rain said to not set expectations. but i too need someone to hold my hands to lead me away frm the dark hole.

heaven and hell

ok let's analyse.
initially halloween is cancelled cos 1st wk inves, 2nd wk maf, third wk ib closin cum blk supper, 4th wk hav halloween is qt taxin?! pp sick of comin down. and we'll need qt a sum of money to make halloween successful. (but otehr halls did it?! bloody hell) and response frm blk reps not v gd cos we need their help for the little interblk contests.
night cycling will be pushed back to nxt sem, fri before march holiday. rationale: need time for canvassin cos cost is too high. 8bucks/bike. 50bucks fer road traffic license wadsoever. min 3bucks fer singlet. and we still need to pay fer petrol fer lorry, van, cars. therefore canvassin req. we cant use social funds. response will act be better durin academic term as more pp in hall.
canoeing is not cfm yet cos need angeline to help me get the canoes. and leslie juz said tehre's gonna be lots of problems this/nxt yr if we were to hold canoe expedition. on the logistics side. bloody hell.
now i juz pray my overseas retreat to redang will be successful nxt sem.

*father i pray

darkness feeds on my misery.

i like it when it rains at night. i like it when i do nt have to think bout wad tml brings. watchin e rain fallin gently onto e concrete floor creatin puddles of reflections. of me and u
wait a minute! i think it's raining again! =)
but ive got assignments to rush. projs due and presentation tml. maybe i'll step out of the room juz fer a while ltr.

wad a sight =)

How I wish I could surrender my soul;
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
Far, far away; find comfort in pain.
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.