playing hard.
playing too hard?
i actually felt embarrassed when she asked me wad games i played last yr.. and i was tryin so hard to recall. did i even play softball? so act i didn play any game at all last yr. and when she said i was slack, all i cld do was smile. and i almost cldn contain my tears. hah.
jib asked me: how come suddenly this yr ure playin so many games when last yr didn even see u.'
my reply: cos the sports managers screwed up. not like u didn noe.'
come to think of it, y do i even bother this yr? wad happened last yr tore me apart and yet im still here. and it seems like it's only me. when i had wished so hard tt i cld be on the same team as my frens, this yr is just the opposite. hah.. playin my fav games alone.. oh wells.. i have always wanted a fren, a teammate to play alongside me, someone who i can pass the ball to and back, knowin tt there's gonna be a spectacular goal by one of us in the nxt few minutes. so SLAMDUNK!! hahaa. yea i wish. maybe... being hopeful i guess. the desire to win champs. the desire to get the ih title.
and wad if the same thing happen this yr and i feel the same disappointment? same fer cheerleadin. hah... my room is my best hideout.
the last thing.. dun Ever Dare challenge me bout my committments, sacrifices and wad i can/have done fer hall unless u can match me in every aspect. if u think u can do more, show me. or shut up.
vidya showed me wad she got fer her gf fer their anniversary.. and her plans fer her this sat night at ecp.. hahha.. really sweet =)
and once again.. she tells me to move on, and so did everyone else. she said tt it's useless. is it really? fran said i got to detach myself frm her..
about time i guess...
i actually felt embarrassed when she asked me wad games i played last yr.. and i was tryin so hard to recall. did i even play softball? so act i didn play any game at all last yr. and when she said i was slack, all i cld do was smile. and i almost cldn contain my tears. hah.
jib asked me: how come suddenly this yr ure playin so many games when last yr didn even see u.'
my reply: cos the sports managers screwed up. not like u didn noe.'
come to think of it, y do i even bother this yr? wad happened last yr tore me apart and yet im still here. and it seems like it's only me. when i had wished so hard tt i cld be on the same team as my frens, this yr is just the opposite. hah.. playin my fav games alone.. oh wells.. i have always wanted a fren, a teammate to play alongside me, someone who i can pass the ball to and back, knowin tt there's gonna be a spectacular goal by one of us in the nxt few minutes. so SLAMDUNK!! hahaa. yea i wish. maybe... being hopeful i guess. the desire to win champs. the desire to get the ih title.
and wad if the same thing happen this yr and i feel the same disappointment? same fer cheerleadin. hah... my room is my best hideout.
the last thing.. dun Ever Dare challenge me bout my committments, sacrifices and wad i can/have done fer hall unless u can match me in every aspect. if u think u can do more, show me. or shut up.
vidya showed me wad she got fer her gf fer their anniversary.. and her plans fer her this sat night at ecp.. hahha.. really sweet =)
and once again.. she tells me to move on, and so did everyone else. she said tt it's useless. is it really? fran said i got to detach myself frm her..
about time i guess...
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