im on e verge of tears on the verge of rippin my heart out and shreddin it to pieces. im countin down to my 19th bdae w not the slightest bit of excitement or spirit. on the contrary im totally down in e dumps. wad's wrong i question. who can ans? the cliched ques once again overwhelms me.. who am i? wad am i doin here? wad do i want?
oh im 19 alr. how am i supposed to feel? im numb with apprehension with zero idea of wad tml holds and wad yest meant. the seconds whizzed past and ive yet to figure out wad juz happened.
once upon a time i was a champion cos i cld outrun and outsmart the guys in my class; i was a princess cos i was the youngest to dance on the stage; i was a great fren cos i thought being gd frens means u love each other. those were my salad daes and i thought they'll last forever.
somewhere ltr, i figured out i need to look fer my very own sanctum. a place so pure with no greys or blacks; so tranquil with greens and blues; so cheerful w oranges and no ashes.
the world scares me. people scares me. they move in frm all directions pressin me leavin me paralysed. they screamed they yelled they knocked me over. hypocrisy or entuhsiasm i cant tell. i choose to run.
i scare myself. wad do i want? i stare straight into mona lisa's eyes. i cant tell. i choose to run.
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