wakin up at 210am

i absolutely dun like wakin up at such hrs but i cant possibly stay awake anymore earlier on. it always set me in this gloomy mood.maybe i shd get many many glow in the dark, and make myself indulge in the 'floating in galaxy' feelin.haha.. supposed to be up at midnight. but smth went wrong with my alarm. perhaps i off it without realisin it again-always happens when im too tired. not so much someone who always wakes up on time huh.

northland camp. dun think i'll forget it anytime soon. much of the memories and lesson learnt will remain etched in me forever. a daunting task, but nonetheless completed. not just the students but us as well, the mental and physical training uncle les and the sch had to put us thru. students werent fantastic brainy kids who cld process all that we were dumpin on them but i dun blame them, and v much on the contrary, i think they were the bravest and most determined kids. kids- 13 and 14 yrs old. if they had failed in their tasks, the faults jolly well lie with us. im actually missing the 2-3 days workin so hard with them. their unyielding determination to complete this daunting task of the century. nicholas edbert zixiang yuki, elvianti kairong camay rauda. these kids worked their butt off. some stood out bcos of their ability to lead, others becos they were hardworking. i cried on the 2nd day, so afraid for the kids that they cldn deliver wad was to be expected in time.and tt night, both grps stayed up late. just to work out an hr scenario play for the nxt morning. all the paperwork killed them and they were totally confused of wad to expect. their effort was undeniable. and cos of tt, i applaud them. how strange,i actually missed them.

nv had ever wanted to be a teacher, but im beginning to get a feel y some will act think of being teachers. trainers/instructors and teachers do have v much in common. we aim to pass on our skills and knowledge to the new generation so tt they cld be better persons as the years passed. wished i had been thru more such camps when i was younger, even though i noe i'll hate it. hahah. ironic, but yes i do feel such camps make one stronger over time. lessons taken back are so invaluable,even fer us trainers. no regrets takin up this task, even though the time cld be better used for my studies. this episode has closed, but the impacts of this episode is amplified a thousand times. thanks uncle les. =)

have got to come to my own life. im just glad to have left smth w those kids, hopefully they rem me, or more importantly, have not left wad skills they have acquired at FIT campsite.

and now it's back to my own life. at my v own table in my room in ntu in 7. memories of yesteryear remains... =) jiayou whors