loved myself
for the very 1st time in my life, im questionin myself.. 'am i a lousy fren?' it just seems tt now, im unable to match up to my frens' expectations, and very much in particular..
i have just learnt to drop my expectations of everyone ard me (yes those ard me physically, and i mean everyone.), and all cos i have enuff of disappoinments. and now, someone tells me, she will do anything and everything fer me! pardon me if i question tt, cos i really dun feel tt's the case. and in actual fact, i dun need anyone to do everything fer me. all i seek is ur respect, support and understanding for all my decisions and choices, ie, even small things like the frens i have ard me. ugly, ignorant, retarded, weird or wad adjectives u can act come up w, pls at the very least give me the benefit of doubt, and acknowledge them as my frens.
y do i have to feel this unnecessary stress comin frm those closer to me. the differences between us have just amplified once again. im tryin to deal w them as much as ure tryin to deal w mine. can we find this balance?
i have changed. to protect myself frm gettin hurt. and now, am i to be wad i used to be?
1st paper tml.. i need my distinction to up my gpa. tt's it fer now. im sorry if this makes me a lousy fren, for this is a promise i have made to my parents and myself. and a promise i'll not break no matter wad. im apologising.. for i duno wad wrongs i have done. wad an idert i am.
i have just learnt to drop my expectations of everyone ard me (yes those ard me physically, and i mean everyone.), and all cos i have enuff of disappoinments. and now, someone tells me, she will do anything and everything fer me! pardon me if i question tt, cos i really dun feel tt's the case. and in actual fact, i dun need anyone to do everything fer me. all i seek is ur respect, support and understanding for all my decisions and choices, ie, even small things like the frens i have ard me. ugly, ignorant, retarded, weird or wad adjectives u can act come up w, pls at the very least give me the benefit of doubt, and acknowledge them as my frens.
y do i have to feel this unnecessary stress comin frm those closer to me. the differences between us have just amplified once again. im tryin to deal w them as much as ure tryin to deal w mine. can we find this balance?
i have changed. to protect myself frm gettin hurt. and now, am i to be wad i used to be?
1st paper tml.. i need my distinction to up my gpa. tt's it fer now. im sorry if this makes me a lousy fren, for this is a promise i have made to my parents and myself. and a promise i'll not break no matter wad. im apologising.. for i duno wad wrongs i have done. wad an idert i am.
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At 11:59 PM,
* min said…
i love you sa (:
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