can u not

it's only the beginning. wad a weakling to complain of stress fatigue aches hunger. wad u have brought upon urself, u deal w the consequences. they are tryin so hard to help but apparently it seems u arent contributing. who's the in-charge? u are. must u always be reminded?

roomie, cld u stop imposin authority on me? i cld handle everything frm angeline, leslie, seniors. but not u. cld u stop tellin me wad to do and wad not to do. if u cld run a better show than be more responsible. and i think gossipin doesn help. so thanks, pls spare me from any more of those.

wakes up. board down.

he said: u noe, immediately after u get up, go straight to the 2 o'clock position, instead of the 12 o'clock (when ur hips point straight to the boat). than u slowly edge out.

i edged my way to the right in the 2 o'clock direction, some difficulties trying to get past the rollers and over the wake

he said: dun stay on the wake for too long. pick up momentum and go over the wake immediately. keep shoulders up, handle low, dun hunch. u need to have the momentum when u come back to the centre. practice toe and tail between the wakes, and when u are confident, slowly edge out.

i did it =) but i cldn back to the centre. so i edged out even more to 'escape' frm the intimadating waves. he did a turn. sad to sae the waves created by the tail of the board wasnt as spectacular as the one XXX did. but wells, pat on shoulder for attempting it and not fallin.

fatigue took over and i juz cldn hold out any longer. fell hard and flat on the waters. big gulps of water rushed down my pipe. gULps!

i was happy. the wind.. the seawaters.. the rain (fortunately it only came after we finished and were heading back)..

How You Live Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside. You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think. You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly. You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.

How do u live your life?
+ i shant deny+

Your Superhero Profile

Your Superhero Name is The Wonder Avenger. Your Superpower is Near-death Experience. Your Weakness is Jealousy . Your Weapon is Your Mystic Shield. Your Mode of Transportation is Stilts.

What's" your Superhero Name?

+ hahahhaa+

can i scold vulgarities pls

s0 has anyone else not watched harry potter yet? or perhaps u wanna watch it again? bloody fuck. im gonna miss the show that i so badly wanted to watch right frm the beginning. argh. fuck lars

yes. im so pissed w myself! im so TOTALLY useless. grr. stupid adobe. will i ever grow to love IT? gawd.
and tml i have to attend the adobe workshop. i'll most prob juz walk out halfway if i get too pissed. and than i'll nv learn. wth.

tell me wad else. cld i start drawing again. i have lost all inspiration to draw anything. ive got no outlets to express my swinging emotions. and that's it.

+suppressed+

shedding of its skin

too much free time and i finally got down to givin u a new layout. not too bad.

realised ive forgotten to plan a dae to bring my digi cam to harbourfront to get it fixed!
where to find the money to get a new one? screw. i'll think bout tt ltr

money will be spend on essentials. tops skirts jeans pants lingerine powersuits.
wad else do i need?

i choose to turn away

I'm sitting here alone up in my room and thinking about the times that we've been through. im looking at a picture in my hand trying my best to understand I really wanna know what we did wrong with the love that felt so strong if only you were here tonight. I know that we could make it right.I don't know how to live without your love. I was born to make you happy. 'cause your the only one within my heart. always and forever you and me. thats the way our life should be. I don't know how to live without your love. I know I've been a fool since you've been gone. I'd rather give it up then carry on. 'cause livin' in a dream of you and me is not the way my life should be. I don't wanna cry a tear for you. so forgive me if I do. if only you were here tonight. I know that we could make it right.

i duno wad i shd sae but i thought it was pretty clear wad i was TRYin to sae juz now. i duno y im feelin this way but it juz seems like i am goin to lose wadeva little is left of you in me. u noe wad. i am equally confused! perhaps i shd be happy for u?! u tell me how u wan me to react cos obviously i simply cldn be myself when u told me that. i duno and i dun care. u make up ur own mind and tell me ur final decision. i cant take it and dun ask me y. cos im confused too and im tryin REALLY hard to figure out why.
everyone needs somebd to be ard at times- to make ur dae to share ur unhappiness to assure u that everything will turn out fine to be there to juz give u a hug to cheer u up when u're down in the dumps to wipe away ur tears to give u flowers to give u patrick to give u mrs fields to give u some lil cute monkey and wad not.

so perhaps u shd.

thanks HUHHH

heys my dear meatloaf! i'll be back soon. dun miss me too much k. +grins+

i was knocked out completely! even the nerves in my ears refused to move. tt explains y i cldn even hear the slightest of the dumb nokia ring tone that goes 'ding ding ding deng deng deng'. lol. haha. yes dietin plans shall commence NOW!

finally im back h9me. home sweet home. no pukish smell of cat shits!

this morning when i got back to hall i was immediately bowled Oover by the pukish smell of shits! it so does not take apple shooters flamin lambor vodka cranberries to make me puke. but that of the brownish squishy pool of shits! the small confined space w that little ventilation certainly make things worse. u guessed right. i rushed to seek cover under my blankets without second thoughts. (afetr i bathe of cos. tsk)

hey guessed wad! me jacelyn vanessa dorothy sneaked away without payin fer the 4 flamin lambors we ordered last night at phuture! WWooohoo! hahhaa. it was damn farnie. when i realised the guy was turin away to attend to some others, i nudged all of them to get back into the crowd! jacelyn was holdin the money and i started pullin her away. when vann and dot knew bout it, they started pushin all of us in further! and jefferey was damn blur! he juz kept 'huh-ing. =)

it's JAC's bdae!

finally babe. ur'e 19! so sorry u had to have papers on ur bdae =/ but wells im goin ALL the way down to nus to see u tml and i got u a present kae =)

hApPY BURLdAE bABe! miss u so much.

rain falling down on you.

hellos babe! guess who! =) im invading your blog.. at 5.30 in the morn. GOOODMORNINGGGG!!! =) i step into the room and find you sound asleep on my bed (whats new right?) =D and i look around for the little one.. and finally i find her sound asleep under all my files. hah when she starts meow-ing at 7am.. please wake up. (HIGHLY DOUBTFUL =D )messaged you, called you a thousand zillion times and you didnt even wake up! even though im sure your hp ringtone is that annoying du-du-du nokia default ringtone! i shall assume you were REALLY zonked out after all your papers. brain drain huh? =) which reminds me you're going home and abandoning poor old me in hall (literally old). i'll be left alone with the little one.. means noone to help clear her poo and pee. =( on a hindnote.. im soso sorry we didnt manage to go for our jog. time flies when ure not watching it? (talking like francine with question marks after every line.?) and so before i knew it it was 3am? and considering you were REALLY zonked out i guess you must have fallen asleep by then? =) sorry babe. lose weight regime starts tmr? (thats what we always say.. =S) aiiights i shall go hang my clothes before the sun rises, and sleep before the kitty starts meow-ing for food! nights babe! er oops. morning!

wad's wad

exams over! xmas comin! any links dude

econs paper was bad. fer some reason i got my concepts mixed up. bloody hell.

feel like slpin but rain's not back yet. am really tired. on the brink of collapsin on the bed and givin up to temptation of ZZzzz monster.

kitten in the house. with names of kulukulu (courtesyof fran), gizmo(tt of min), milo(cheng) and the little one (rain). bad at names so shant sae anything.

i wanna get up and fly to the other end of the world to see the sun the sands the moon the stars

concentrated juices

heys darlin have i neglected u long enuff? im sorry

-concentrated brain juices- it has juz come to a point where every brain cells in my body is screamin fer mercy. wad with the amount of words i have to cram into them. how much can each cell take i wonder.

biz law paper at 1.30pm in a couple of hrs. god have mercy on me. -say a lil prayer fer me-
econs paper at 1.30pm tml. god have mercy on me. -let the glorious past re-enact-

there were times when i thought i saw ur shadows brushed past me.
the natural scent whiffed past and for tt moment i felt ur presence overwhelmed me once again.
not.
the sweetest thing in life turns bitter more often than not.
how long cld it stay the same? how long cld u stay the same?

adopted - 'the lil' one'
in my room. filled with love...

shall wake up feelin grateful tt im still alive. to be all prepared to take on the law paper and score another A. i wish...

=)

my happy dae!

im so happy i wanna make everyone ard me happy too! hahaha. im goin to bake muffins and cookies after my exams fer pp in the hall! yay! and christopher and jaex and sin and min and ning if she's back. +grins+

look fer mai ya tang at chinatown. fer everyone too!

go wakeboardin. suntannin.

so todae... yongwei juz gave me a ride on his bike at 3am! thankyou yongwei and of cos jingwen! hahaha i totally love it!

meatloaf i love u too! hahaha fer juz being meatloaf.

im less than 10 hrs away frm my 1st paper! OBD! im nt feelin the tension i duno y... perhaps my mind's simply too overwhelmed by everything...
mum jie im sorry.. i'll try my best.