cliched. but it came true! met him at zouk yest, nth like those i met the last time. he's different i noe.. the way he grooved to the music, the way he moved. he was stealin glances, but i think i had more. not of those typical ones whose hands went astray, it was nice.. comfortable with him.. oh wells, fairytales i guess =/ and he's yet another vincent. haha coincidence.

trainings are pickin up.. the new coach is good, least he inspired me. feet hurting cos of multiple sprains, got to go to the sinseh tml to get them fixed..

stupid angeline nv fails to make me reminisce bout the past. wad i had done, had been doin.. orientations,jcrc activities, cheerleadin, IHgames and opening, hall, soccer,frens and of cos studies. keepin my thoughts and feelings all nicely mixed up in a pretty lil' jar. learnt more things i'd ever in the last 19yrs...precious lessons to guide me thru life. i noe there's more i'll pick up in the nxt 2 yrs. and i'll be diligent. paving my path to success =) my dreams...

grey's

"I don't know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I'd have to say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? What if you're making a mistake you can't undo? The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can't pretend we hadn't been told. We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying. "

-courtesy of rain =D

running away

ive found a rather good deal fer bintan! 122bucks fer 3D2N.. cheapest alr! and now the only thing tt's holdin me back is the f. up indo trip. given up my job and time and energy but all fell through. giving myself 2 wks to see if the sponsors are gonna reply us if not.. think i was stupid to initiate this. amateurish indeed. and it's suckin away all my zest to go fer ocip. ARRghhH.
u took away my time =(

everyone's doin the things they enjoy.. but wad the hell am i doin?
nth! waitin.. waiting in vain!

pack my bags, im goin off. to the embrace of sea waters.

so long

these daes, ive learnt to handle my emotions and mood swings better.. thanks to my roomie and the girls nxt door. hahah. and so i feel. +)
the indo trip plannings are kinda screwed up.it just makes me feel helpless and drains all myhopes. every other dae there'll be hope that some organization will fund us but at the end of it, the same problem recurs - it's such a short notice!! oh god! spare me this shit. all our time and effort spent on this and it's juz gonna go down the drain.. swish swash.. and i cld have done 10000 other stuff and the 1st wld be to make money.
and the hall trip.. yet to make up my mind bout where to go. if i were to choose i'll go bintan if not langkawi. yet i have to cater to so many pp. oh wells, if somebd cld juz come along and give me the cheapest deal. it's so not easy lookin ard fer deals and i still have the indo trip. to drop or not to drop is still an issue. #$%^&*

angel speaks: problems will be solved! not to worry =) it may not be the perfect ans, but uve tried ur best and tt's all that matters after all. it was good plannin fer the indo trip, but it'll just have to be on hold if fundings dun come in. it may even be a unfulfilled dream. but nonetheless, learn ur lessons and move on. as fer the hall trip, it's fer u pp to relax, y crack ur brains and get worried fer nth. organise it as a trip fer frens.. call up 1 agency and settle fer tt. dun expect to satisfy everyone cos it's juz not possible. once again...